Its going to happen this week
I'm not sure what I was expecting to feel, but this was not it. We were told that the clinic in Denver would not be a good fit for Cadence based on there not being a "support system". Their youngest patient is 15. They referred us to a clinic in Portland. We started the process over again including a 27 page questionaire mostly dealing with family history. Then there was a fiasco with insurance, but alas... the clinic has decided our case is one they are willing to take on. Now that we have a date set to meet the doctor I've been told can help us, I just feel more nervous than before. Not knowing where we are going or what is going to happen is driving me crazy! I am also nervous that I am going to be expected to know what the doctors are saying and making decisions alone.
Thursday Cadence and I will board a plane to the Kartini Clinic in Portland, OR. It's a one way ticket. I have no idea what to pack. How long will we be there? I dont have any answers and Cadence is (rightfully so) scared. The only thing I have been able to reassure her with is that mommy will not let anyone hurt her. I dont know if she will be admitted and if I will be able to stay with her. All I know is that Dr. O'Toole is considered one of the leading doctors for pediatric eating disorders in the country. I pray I can stay in one piece.
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